Things with my business haven’t been going well. I’ve blown through all my savings trying to keep it afloat, and sales are simply non-existent, despite having the best prices and only selection in the entire country. If that’s not a sign there’s no market to be had, then I don’t know what is. Hell, I was never in it to make money, but I had at least hoped to break even and have the means to help more people in need. On top of that misery, I get disrespected by almost everyone in the industry, as if I’m some feckless vulture. If it weren’t for the encouragement and support I receive from Decomposed Skateboards, I’d have likely quit by now and burned every bridge in a pyroclastic explosion of spite and bitter vengeance.
Things have been pretty tough lately. I’m slipping further into debt, my business is struggling, and my writing has suffered for it. Sure, I haven’t missed an update in over 240 days, but I find myself less and less motivated to keep it up, and the quality reflects that at times.
For some reason, I thought being the only place in the entire country with a selection of freestyle skateboards would be profitable. Jokes on me, I guess. I have some of the best prices in the world, and I haven’t had a single sale so far.
New vistas open up before you
New potential lies in wait
New avenues of change
Memories to create
So, I’ve got my first order of freestyle boards up on the webstore. If you live in Canada, I’ve got the best prices in town. On top of that, I put part of all proceeds towards helping skaters like Lucas in the third world. If you’re in the market for something to skate indoors this winter, I’d really appreciate you checking out the link below.
Things have been pretty difficult. I won’t lie, I’m getting pretty tired of it. The failed blog, the failing business. The small amount of good I’ve been able to do is my only motivation at this point. I can’t give up, but I can’t succeed either. That seems to be the general theme of my life’s story. Sure, I’ve been through a lot worse, but letting others down hurts in a way that’s much harder to cope with.
I used to love the small hours. For a time, I lived most of my life between midnight and five in the morning. The substantial bits, at least. Now I feel quite miserable if I stay up past eleven. To be fair, I was a meth addict back then. I’d rather be early to bed than early to the grave, so I’m definitely better off now.
I didn’t really begin this post with any direction or purpose in mind, but it’s served well in temporarily preventing me from wasting time on social media. I suppose I’ll head back to bed and try to get some sleep. I don’t know if it’s stress that’s been messing with me lately, but I could do with a proper rest.
Hope everyone is doing well. Bye for now.
J.C. “Mongo” Lloyd
If you want to see what I’ve been up to, I post a variety of things on my instagram page. I’m just putting the finishing touches on a little pseudo art project, for example. It’s a surprise for a friend in need, and I’ll admit that I’m fairly proud of the results. https://www.instagram.com/mlm_skates/
If you see fit to give me a follow, or the skater I sponsor, we would really appreciate it.
J.C. “Mongo” Lloyd
Despite breaking my heel, I’ve managed to stay productive. Unfortunately, staying productive isn’t always profitable. I suppose I’m really in no different a position than I have been for the last several years, except I’m now physically broken as well. This would normally be the part where I attempt to direct folk to my patreon page, but I don’t really see the point. If people won’t support the charitable organization I run, I highly doubt anyone would want to help me personally. Hope everyone is having a substantially better week than I am. Bye for now.
– J.C. “Mongo” Lloyd
Did I lose you along the way?
Off to play at better pastimes?
Did I cross the line?
One too many run on rhymes?
Did I strike a nerve?
Ask too many questions?
Make you feel alike?
Akin to my perception?
Cutting to the chase
Did I lose you, or have I been outpaced?
I’m having a lot of trouble getting to sleep at a normal time lately, and not for lack of trying. Even when I’m exhausted, I get about two or three hours, then wake up as tired as I started. It seems like nothing really helps, whether it be a commercially available sleep aid, or a vast quantity of pot. I know people like to suggest exercise, but I’ve actually been quite active in recent months. I swear, that’s the “have you tried turning it off and on” of the sleep world.
I hope everyone is doing well, and managing to enjoy their weekend. If you’re struggling like I am, I wish you luck and peace.
J.C – Lloyd
Starting a charitable organization from the ground up is tough, and I encounter obstacles everywhere I look. The way it’s going, I’ll be several months behind schedule with products and marketing, but I had anticipated struggles, as I do in all things. If it weren’t for the good it does for those in need, I don’t think I could motivate myself to continue. To be clear, I have no current donors and do everything out of pocket.
For almost a decade now, I’ve freely offered my writing to anyone in need of a little catharsis. I’ve shown time and time again that you can struggle openly with things like depression and disappointment without it being the end of you, or defining you as a person. I’ll continue to do this until I can’t any longer, whether anyone reads or not, and regardless of whether anyone sees fit to support my many and varied efforts. I just ask that you consider it, and keep in mind that even two dollars a month from a stranger makes a world of difference for someone like Lucas, and all the people he helps in turn.
Thank you for taking the time to read, and my apologies for coming on a bit strong. I’ve felt like a life raft on the Titanic lately.
Justin Clapp – Lloyd