I don’t know why I keep this up
It’s only for myself
Nobody cares for me
And I care for no one else
My personal hell, laid out on the page
People take a glance, then carry on their way
So many days
So many years I’ve invested
Always in the red
One sided transactions
Undiscovered
Undisclosed
Secret mind
Secret body
Loosely defined form
Seen far less often
Uncommon
Undervalued
Undesired
Overwhelmed
Keeping quiet ’til there’s no one left to tell
Eyes turned inward
Toward the shimmers in the dark
Captivate me for a while
Seeking out the heart
Impart from within
Some kind of understanding
A life alike a set of flights, falls and landings
Demand little, find enough
Gain momentum
Pick myself back up
Something keeps me coming back
I lack the will to quit
Paradoxical by nature
My thoughts always conflict
If I just walk away, can I reclaim this wasted time?
Failure calls back to me
“I am yours and you are mine”
Denial unbecoming
I put the pen to page
Back for a taste of failure
Again, again, again….
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