Reluctancy plagues me

Sometimes I’d like to disappear

Total lack of motivation

Takes my all to persevere

Fear of failure

Fear of missing out

Lost opportunities

Nagging little doubts

Cloud my days

Horizons foreboding

Trapped inside

I keep the windows boarded


Sudden interest leaves me speechless

Somehow I could take or leave it

Even though I’m so alone

I still put up walls of stone

A maze of introversion

Those who pass it are deserving

In a self serving sort of way

I posses no value

Perhaps special in my way

As are any others

Why all of the sudden am I the one to covet?